NOVEMBER 22 2009 2352 - JACKSONVILLE FL - I should be a mind reader, or perhaps a prophet. Just as I predicted, the inevitable occurred.
Not long after the wife arrived at "Her House" (by the way, she openly stated that fact), she started yet another fight. She knows I will not hit her because my moral code prohibits such activity. Believe me, she took full advantage of that.
Let me paint a couple of pictures for you. My son approaches me in the kitchen, and my wife tells him not to, and then grabs him away from me. My son tries to sit next to me on the sofa, but my wife grabs him away. In the morning, my wife ushers him quickly past my location without allowing him to acknowledge me. Based on those pictures, why is your assessment? I agree, the wife is systematically removing my son from my life. Here is her assessment, my son was always available to me and she never made any attempt to isolate me from my son. Are you thinking what I am thinking? The two biggest lies in the world are "Always" and "Never"? Never is Always what Always Never is. She painted the picture that I was deliberately removing myself from my son's life. Now there are two points of view here. The first is the way people from Cross SC see it, which is how my wife described it, and the second is how the rest of the worlds sees is, which is based on the facts.
Anyway, my wife pushed all of the buttons which trigger my rage, and I will be honest, we had a few casualties, a couple of pictures were destroyed. My wife pretended to call the police, and I actually called my daughter. Wife wanted to try her little back woods bluff, and I called her on it. I left with my daughter, and with my portion of this month's mortgage payment. In the morning, I will seek an Apartment. I will also download the packet need to file for divorce and begin to fill out the forms. I will then store them on my computer and prepare for her to involve a lawyer. This will be a contested divorce because of my son, but as you already know, my ace in the hole is that I will include the petition to surrender my parental rights. She wants to exclude me from my son's life? I will give her what she wants. May God Have Mercy On My Soul.
Funny how song lyrics tend to come to mind when one is dealing with a crisis. Through early morning fog I see, Visions of the things to be, The pains which are withheld for me, I realize and I can see, That Suicide is painless, It brings on many changes, and I can take or leave it as I please. Personal translation? My eyes open in a predawn haze, and reveals the trials I must endure, thus I prepare to embrace them. I could kill myself, but what difference would it make? Still it is my decision to make. Which decision will I make?
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