Catching Up

March 11 2011 2344 - Jacksonville FL: It has honestly been a good little minute since I am contributed anything to this blog. Well, not better time than the present to kind of get back into the swing of things.

So, where do I begin, I mean other than the fact that we are in a whole new year (2011)? What is my claim to fame thus far in this new year? I guess I can sum it all up with a rousing not much at all. Well, outside of getting a year older, I guess I can say nothing at all.

I am still dealing with this whole single lifestyle thing. I am just not socially motivated at this point. Nothing seems to kindle my interest, and I am honestly lacking concern about that at this moment in my life.

I would go out and catch a movie every now and then. In fact I decided to check out Battle LA this evening. I actually found it to be interesting, even if the story line was unbelievable, and full of make believe. Something about stories of the underdogs who turn the tide in their favor grabs my attention. That has been the story of America for centuries. Underdogs with our backs against the wall like some cornered dog, only for out adversaries the find out that cornered dogs really do fight back. Yeah, I get a kick out of stories like that, and so I found Battle LA to be interesting. KInd of like watching an X-Box or PS3 game on the movie screen.

Anyway, take away the movies and my occasional walks, my life is rather mundane, and bland. Perhaps I need to find a good social club to become a member of. Trouble is, it is hard to find a really decent social club here in Jacksonville. Anybody know of any good ones? Believe me, I am all ears, so do share.

Maybe I just need that one good companion to talk to, and hang out with. Something platonic, becuase I am sick and tired of the lies and the games people play when it comes to relationships. Especially in the African American community, of which I am a part of. There is far too much back stabbing, the women do not respect the men regardless of how open and responsible we are, and there may only be 3% of the entire community that truly understrands what an honest and real relationship is. Most in my community simply look a good realtionship in the mouth and then do the Janet Jackson "What Have You Done For Me Lately" routine. Love means nothing to most of these folks, and honestly I am really sick and tired of it. The whole experience has soured me to relationships in general. I pray that I will get over it, but wow, I can't shake the experience. That is why I am seeking a truly platonic friend, someone I could share a real conversation with, because goodness knows there is not much in the way of conversations - at least not truly intelligent conversations - on this side of the fence.

Now, please don't take me the wrong way, not all of us are like that. There is the 3% that I mentioned earlier; however, it had been my misfortune the have not really encountered anyone from that 3%. I meet pretenders all the time. You know the type, they say the things they think you want to hear without giving you credit for your intelligence to be able to express who you really are to them. These people have to over talk you, belittle you, make themselves feel superior while makng you feel small. I can't get with that, life is far to short for that kind of living.

I know it seems like I complain a lot, and I apologize for creating that image if I did. Still, I want to be happy like everybody else. To me, happiness is balance. From balance comes harmony, and from harmony comes the beautiful music of our lives. That's all I want, and I don't feel I am asking too much. If I am, tell me so, but I really don't feel that I am.

Well, better call it a night. I will endeavor to maintain this blog better than I have in the past. Thank you for reading. Feel free to comment, and share your thoughts.