Life Sucks Without Transportation

AUGUST 29 2010 1510 JACKSONVILLE FL - I don't care what anyone tries to say, not havinga car when you've become so dependent on one is pure murder.

Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem with public transportation, as it does fill a need; however, it is times like these, when I have a dead line to be at a certain venue, and the bus is just not going to cut it for me, that I start to really miss the luxury of having my own transportation.

See, as it stands, I am reduced to relying on the availability of others, and of course this makes me feel as if I am a burden on others. For me, that is less than acceptable. I would much rather have the ability to rely on myself, as I've grown so used to doing.

Still, all things considered, it is my fault. I should have done everything in my power to ensure I would never be without my own transportation, but I instead opted to sacrifice of my own for the sake of the comfort of others. I am perhaps the biggest fool that I know. I now know why a lot of black men take a "Fuck You" attitude when it comes to helping others out. After being jerked around for many years, who can blame them? Yet,here I am, Mr. Glass Half Full, Dr. Silver Lining, the Artist Formerly Know As Common Sense. Yep, I have to be the one who goes against the grain. Instead of taking the road most traveled, I opt to slice through the underbrush of the road least traveled by.

Well, it is not looking as if I am going to make this dead line, so I may as well just go home. Tomorrow is another day, another opportunity to build onto my savings that will eventually yeild me another car, Good Lord Willing. In the mean time, life will just have to keep sucking without transportation.