AUGUST 14 2010 2147 - JACKSONVILLE FL - I decided that I would do something special for a person who I have neglected for a fairly long period of time. For several months I have focused on the needs of everyone one else, and placed the needs of this person aside, for I felt this person could wait while the needs of the rest of the world - so to speak - were attended to. Yeah, that was a smart idea, and really smart idea, and I say that with extreme sarcasm. So I decided that I would stop taking this person for granted, and do something special today.
Now I am hoping that it should not take a rocket scientist to figure out that the person I am talking about is me. That's right, me, little ole me. Between work and church, and friends, and family, and oh whatever, I - me - have simply put myself on hold. I would come in the house, and go straight to the bed room - my lowly, empty and lonely bed room - where the only voice to offer me any comfort and escape from the stark reality of my miserable existence is that of Delilah on the radio. Indeed, if not for Delilah, depression would have gotten the best of me. Of course, my Bible and my prayers also help immensely to keep me from drifting into a bout of fatal depression, and as long as I have God in my life, I know I can maintain.
Still, I needed to do something to treat myself today. I am going to be honest, with Student Loans, Child Support, utilities, telephone, and other fiscal obligations, I really don't have any kind of liquidity in my finances; however, I realize that at time a person needs to make a little space in the budget to treat himself, even if it is only something as simple as a movie. That is what I did today, as I decided to go to the Tinseltown Movie Theater and see a movie today. I was not sure of which one until I arrived and ready the marquee.
I elected to see The Other Guys which starred Mark Wallburg and Will Ferrell. I am going to say that I was pleasantly surprised with the movie. After they killed off Samuel L Jackson and Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson, the movie took on a very interesting life. Mark Wallburg - a cop seeking another chance - and Will Ferrell - a victim of a massive identity crisis - set out to solve what should have been a simple permit issue, but instead ballooned into a major international ponzi scheme. The movie had me laughing in several parts, and I felt it was well directed. All in all, it was well worth the $25 (counting concessions) spent today, and I honestly needed it. I went by myself, no one else in tow, and I had a wonderful time. Best of all is the fact that I was not stuck in the house all day planning a pity party, or something crazy like that.
Fighting loneliness is difficult at best, and I know that there are going to be times when I have to bite the bullet and just deal with it. Still, when the opportunity permits, it is really good to take a pause for the cause, and that cause being me. If I do not take time to show myself some love, in this crazy world in which we live, who else will?
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